What's cracking youngings?

So I'm bored to death, yet dying is the last thing at the back of my mind...
I'd rather swing off  a cliff and experience the exuberance that comes with letting go.

There really isn't much that brings me here today, except for that there's a lot going on, but  I try to be more awake and less distracted and it seems to be working for me - care less & less stress so they say.
So I'm going around minding my own business loving what  I've got and looking to get more!!

Past life experiences have taught me to bring people with positive energies into my inner circle or just hangout by myself.....that works very well for me too. Because if those are enthusiastic, authentic... Oh! did I ever mention how I dislike people who front!? and they will be scheming on different branches of the tree, like lil shits!... Oh well that's a story for another day.

OK I sense some remorse from what I just wrote...hey  one's got to vent - shit happens everyday.
Don't take it personal ....I never take it personal. Some of you will be spitting venom , when not all poisonous makes rattle, keep that in mind.

With that said, I am glad to be where I am today, considering that some got it very bad out there - Its better to be here than in Darfur..

It has been a while

Tem sido em tempo  It has been a while indeed. I had a lot going on - I know its not an excuse - I should have blogged more - but I didn't * hangs head in shame*.
Well I will try and change that.
This makes it my first blog in 2013 - I transitioned well into this new year... Hope you and yours did the same.

I do have a lot of intentions lined up for this year - my creator willingly all the intended will be evident.
Last year might have not been the year I thought I would have - some goals that were set didn't come to pass, but hey complaining gets no one anywhere and I still have another shot at life because the best of my story hasn't been told yet.
I will admit though that there was a point in my 2012 life that I was so angry with the world - but I guess it was worth it all, although I wouldn't saying losing a loved one was worth it - that is just something you only understand once you have gone through.

With that said...life also taught me a few lessons....I was broken and made whole..here I am today still soldering on. A wise man once said to me "You looking good baby sis...keep ur head up,  One step at a time dear you'll get there. All the best."

I hope whatever this year unfolds for each and every one of us.. we do not loose ourselves in the process.
Love and Laugh more...*here, here to 2013*

*All my love*

THE SOUL BROTHERS 36TH ANNIVERSARY CELEBRATION

So through my hustling skills I scored myself a YEAHBO.NET invite to the Soul Brothers 36^th Anniversary Media Luncheon Launch. My first experience to such, since I am no media mogul or journalist.  But they say a DIVA is a female version of a hustler or I can say that it was just the birth of a business venture between me and YEAHBO.NET….Did I say I am looking forward to see this venture to grow? Yes I am.

                                        THE SOUL BROTHERS 36^TH ANNIVERSARY CELEBRATION

The Luncheon Launch was held at Durban’s most favored hotel – The Hilton Hotel. Most people from the local media scenes were there, i.e. Independent News journalists, Igagasi 99.5fm, the second largest radio station in the world with an estimated 6.67 million listeners – “UKHOZI FM” representatives were also there.

The reason behind this media launch - which was made possible by MVUNONAL A HOLDINGS Financial Services Company in conjunction with UKHOZI FM, is to see Soul Brothers rise again. They will be presenting one of the biggest concerts. The Soul Brothers 36^th Anniversary Celebration Concert which is to be held at Durban’s Inkosi Albert Luthuli International Convention Centre on September 22, 2012.

This International Mbhaqanga - Jazz concert will be one of the best yet, as legends in these music genres will share a stage in celebration of one of South Africa’s best known bands, the Soul Brothers. The concert will feature an international artist Gerald Albright, Johnny Clegg, Jimmy Dludlu, Grammy Award Winner Ladysmith Black Mambazo, Mbongeni Ngema and Ihhashi Elimhlophe.

Tribute performances will include the likes of Zakes Bantwini, Siphokazi, Oskido, The Soil, DJ Siyanda and Sifiso Ncwane. Tickets will go on sale at Computicket (they are now available at Computicket from R150.00).

“The whole emphasis on Mvunonala Holdings involvement with the Soul Brothers as their pilot band is installing the idea of SAVING – not just to them, but to all other artists who get featured on their national tours, as you would have heard a lot of our late artist’s families struggling with burying their loved ones – as per Mvunolala’s Executive Director Welcome Nzimande, former UKHOZI station manager”

And it’s also a good initiative to celebrate our artist while they are still alive and if there are companies like Mvunonala willing to fund celebrations like these…why not!

NB: Mark your diaries for the 22^nd day of Spring to be a part of this big celebration... See u there!

In Loving Memory

Its sad that I have to write about you after you having passed on.
I wish things turned out differently  - but sadly they are this way. I wish I had cherished you more whilst you still lived. Right now I wish a whole lot of things and my wishing is just in vain.
You were a brother, like a father to my son - who misses you dearly and doesn't understand anything about death, a son to my mother. I am grateful for having shared your 31 precious years with me, we were not always together, but I always knew I had a brother who had my back.
I remember our fights, the brick games we used to play - I could write a book about our experiences, but yet again it would be an orbituary. I am glad that you touched so many lives - you made your mark. You shared your dreams and visions with not just me, but with a whole lot of people. You were not afraid to try - you were a REAL opportunist.

Thank you for having touched my life and many others - As of now I stop mourning your death and start celebrating your life. There is just so much to say about you, but I will let you rest now.

Love always  - your sister...

Screwed up or not......

So why is it that you get hurt most by the people you mean less to and the people who wouldn't even kill an ant to spare you the hurt are actually the people you try to avoid to have in your life - Or am I the only one going through this?, I have just developed this feeling of hurt, how it creeped in, I actually dont know ( or maybe I know very well and I have let it in) as much as I am trying so hard to ignore it , it looks like it has the upper hand, do I need some divine intervention or I am just totally screwed up, is there's gonna be no help for me?????  And then this songs plays on my radio it reminds me of all the people that mean a worth to me and I mean a whole worth to  - so I convince myself. Out of all the things I have and wanted so badly in my life, but now that I have them, actually they dont seem to fill in this void, maybe I need therapy, maybe im screwed up a bit because of all the things I went through in my life whilst growing up,you know what, to be honest I DONT KNOW MYSELF!!!!!!!! I am just just trying to find the answers myself, I might not have them and I might have just lost touch with life.You might be going through the same shit I am going through or not - all I know is that now that I have vented I feel better, maybe I can go to sleep now without taking any sleeping pills.
I am actually glad that I have spring cleaned few people who are irrelevant in my life, I am willing to make this change in life starting from today, hoping for a better outcome.

Just because......

Just because I don't ever shed a tear, you foolishy assume , I feel no pain,
Just because I keep on giving, you don't think of giving yourself, you are only happy to keep on recieving,
Just because I keep on reaching out, you take that as a sign of weakness,
Just because there is no bleeding ,you unwittingly think I am not hurting,
Just because I kept walking, it never occurs to you that I also get tired,
Just because I don't complain, you convince yourself I am ok,
Just because I don't confront you or accuse you, you are convinced I dont know, you are convinced, I am blind or plain stupid,
Just because I don't raise my voice, you think that I am scared and helpless,
Just because I have faith in a better tomorrow, you unwisely conclude that I am weak,
Just because my heart stubbonly keeps on beating , you feel I can take more punches,
Just because I keep on smilling, even though deep inside im hurting, doesn't it occur to you that i also have feelings like you?
Why should I be always on the giving end and instead of the recieving side? Am I being too selfish or Am I just being human?
Whatever your take is.......Just because I am able to vent out, it doesn't mean that you should take it as a weakness,,,,

Is it the Masses or the Promoters

I was looking forward to the Zarfest, that I even got myself Golden passes to the gig.Then a day before the gig I recieve a funny message from Computicket alerting me that the concert had been cancelled.I first thought it was some one pulling one funny sick joke on me - I call the Zar Empire enquiring about this, but this nerd lady I speak to has no idea (how's that for incompetence?), but then I checked the social media networks and it was indeed true. I was so fustrated in an unimaginable way, the thing is when I tell myself that I am doing or not doing something,then it gotta be just like that "My will shall be done".

Now that my plans were all buggered up by Zarfest's POOR promotion skills - maybe it wasn't entirely the promoters fault - maybe not everyone was fascinated by the list of performers. For the mere fact that all the artist were already in town,makes me wonder what really went down, besides "the poor of sales excuse"- ENOUGH with the maybe's , I still had to make another plan, so there I was booking flight tickets to Jozi and sorting out accomodation.I tell you it was hard work  - as I had to do all that in a space of two days, two days I said.

The gig was out of this world, except for Lil Kim's performance and Timbaland's - my advice to Timbo is for him to stick to producing and colabs , because when he is all alone on stage - he is just one huge fag (excuse my grammar) but its true.Ciara is one performer who out did herself I must say, dispite some unpleasant encounters and the cold - it turned out to be one of the dopest show and the company was great too.

Now looking forward to Trey Songz gig - I am anticipating the response from Durban peeps, hope it wont be cancelled, like Timbalands show  - but I wouldnt be suprised if its cancelled due to poor advertising, the first and last I heard of it was on the tv show LIVE and then it was it or maybe I'm just being negative, would someone blame me though after the June experience??????. To tell you the truth I am not so exited about the show as I was a few weeks back, maybe its a sign that it's also gonna be bummer, ohh well I will just have to wait and see, twenty eight days and couting down.

While I'm on that count down - I am also looking forward to a performace by a dear friend of mine, known as Ebonygypsy  - This Women's Day at the Catalina Theatre, Ebonygypsy Arts presents:



A WOMAN, A HAT, A BAG AND HER BELLY

This event is set to showcase the beauty of women through poetry, music and fashion featuring local hat and handbag designers and Tumelo Khoza, Thando, Six Beats, Davyn, Clint, Seamartist and the Ebonygypsy herself  - Legggo and support , here here to WOMAN POWER!!!!!!! you go my lady.