"Thoughts"

So I've been doing a lot of writing today. The thing  is I got tired of thinking, seemingly thats what I've been doing lately. They say over thinking can cause a lot of unwanted emotions. Its true though, because once you have something on your mind, you try to analyze it , sometimes you end up over analyzing it. You know mos' when you get visited by those ohh so daunting thoughts. You question yourself, but don't  seem to be listening or asking the right questions. You don't know whether its progress or digress.

When days blend into weeks, weeks into months , till drips are drops for flies to swim in, when you think and even run out off things to think about and your head starts to ache . That happens if you're a loner like me. But I must say that most of the time I enjoy my own company, my own space - having to let out gas without worrying what the next person will think or say that it might smell like a petrol bomb that went off in Darfur. Although there are times when I think about how " it must be nice" to have someone to share ones time with, besides my job. But then up until that person comes along, I'm ok....I'm super grand. 

Some people might call it pride, maybe it is , maybe not. I know though that pride will be the death for some of us. But yet again the human species is just too much to comprehend at times hey . The egos.....dealing with egos happens not to be in my job description shame. Some of us need to handle ourselves appropriately. Until then I'm ok where I am.

As I unravel on these thoughts of mine it just came to pass that I've allowed thoughts of things I have no control over hinder my present and future. Rather let me not replay time I can never get back.