A Gift Of Time...

Four days...in about four days my life can change for the better (hopefully). I am an absolute cocktail of emotions - If I were to get into them it would be a prose composition. "Fear and confidence".I am comforted by that contentment feeling that confindence seems to be taking the upper hand, infact I can do this - its been way over due and it has been a standstill block in my life progressions.

I know I said in four days my life can change for the better - see that's the problem right there with the human species. We plan for things for a few minutes later, hours, days, weeks , months and a year later, forgetting that we are not immortal, we might not just make it to that particular time we have in mind or we might not be lucky enough to do the things were are hoping for.That is why they say: If you love them, tell them.show them.find a way to express it to them.it's never too late.ever. BUT yet again if you do not do it in an instant it might just be too late.

So here I am crossing my fingers and asking the universe to please be good to me and everybody involved in making this life changing moment happen for me. In the meantime I will be hopeful in the fourth day - things will turn out for the better.

                                                                                                                                                                                         

It'll fall into place...

What I have realised and love about me.
#1: I enjoy the comfort of myself. 
#2: I don't need to a person in order to be complete, because I complete myself.
#3: I have confidence in myself to succeed and I am realistic about things that I can and can not do.
Although there are those moments when one is overwhelmed by certain feelings of doubt - I come to my senses and re - realise that God is bigger than anything.
#4: I know the difference from what is good for me and what is not so good. Even though sometimes I still follow the things that aren't the greatest for me, like wanting forever with someone.. yet knowing that you deserve better!. I also trust that in my stupidity I will learn something valuable and be a better person.

I know I am not where I want to be in life, but I know one thing that I'll get there. It may not be in the time frame I have set for myself but I will get there.I have learnt that the lesson is in the struggle not in the victory and I embrace my struggles because from them I learn the greatest lessons about life.Some one dear to me once said "one step at a time my dear, you'll get there".

And throughout this process of finding myself I have learnt that even when my inner goddess talks negatively to me, one has to rise above all negativity and believe it'll will fall into place.
With that said..should I get an invite from the universe to party - I will carpe diem and party hard to celebrate where I am at the moment.

To my dear unirverse  - from the bottom of my heart I would like to take this moment and thank you for showing me love, It proves that things will fall into place...