So why is it that you get hurt most by the people you mean less to and the people who wouldn't even kill an ant to spare you the hurt are actually the people you try to avoid to have in your life - Or am I the only one going through this?, I have just developed this feeling of hurt, how it creeped in, I actually dont know ( or maybe I know very well and I have let it in) as much as I am trying so hard to ignore it , it looks like it has the upper hand, do I need some divine intervention or I am just totally screwed up, is there's gonna be no help for me????? And then this songs plays on my radio it reminds me of all the people that mean a worth to me and I mean a whole worth to - so I convince myself. Out of all the things I have and wanted so badly in my life, but now that I have them, actually they dont seem to fill in this void, maybe I need therapy, maybe im screwed up a bit because of all the things I went through in my life whilst growing up,you know what, to be honest I DONT KNOW MYSELF!!!!!!!! I am just just trying to find the answers myself, I might not have them and I might have just lost touch with life.You might be going through the same shit I am going through or not - all I know is that now that I have vented I feel better, maybe I can go to sleep now without taking any sleeping pills.
I am actually glad that I have spring cleaned few people who are irrelevant in my life, I am willing to make this change in life starting from today, hoping for a better outcome.
